Tangerine trees and marmalade skies

Have any of you seen Across The Universe? I watched it a couple of weeks ago but it's stuck in my head. It only reaffirms my belief that I'm generationally displaced. I really wish I could have been a hippie. Well, minus the psychadelics. From what I hear of people that have experienced some type of psychadelic drug it sounds neither interesting or fun. In fact it sounds down right horrifying. I'm not sure what could possibly be fun about thinking trees are speaking to you or thinking that things around you are melting into each other, etc. Sounds like experiencing true pychotic behavior. Not my cup of tea. So that aside, I would love to have been a 30's flapper chick or a 50's poodle skirt girl or my personal favorite...the hippie. I started thinking about why I feel like I don't belong or fit into my generation. I'm not sure it's that I don't fit in, we just don't have any defining characteristics. My generation doesn't really have anything to fight for or believe in. We're all just rushing around trying to cram as much into one day as we possibly can without stopping to ponder the world around us or smell the flowers. It's pretty sad in my opinion. Maybe since there is a war going on right now I could stir up a new generation hippie revival. LOL. I know there are some important things happening in the world like the first woman and african american running for President. Those are really events that are occuring. It's still not a cause. I don't know. I just think my generation is the most blah group to come along. We are the first generation of people that haven't had to fight for something. Everything has been laid out for us. No fighting for civil rights or women's lib issues or surviving depression. Sometimes dealing with a struggle gives character to people and to a certain time. My parents experienced desegregation. I'm sure that was interesting to live through. The only way the world has really changed since I've been around in the increasing neccessity of computers. Wow, I'm the generation that contributed to the downfall of face to face communication. You never have to leave your home again! Order your groceries online! Contact your friends and family online. Order your clothes and toys and household needs online. Sit in your house on your bottom and get fatter and lazier by the minute! Enable the diabetes epidemic by becoming addicted to your xbox and myspace. Sports? Fresh air? Blah! Just stay in and play computer games. I am just so proud to be a part of this. I'm just generally out of place. I'd rather live in the country but I'm stuck in the city. I'd rather be a full time mom but those women's lib activists graced me with the right which translates into need to work. I'd rather not look at pictures from when Chris and I met and notice that I look young and freshfaced, but my reflection now shows me wrinkles! Yes, wrinkles!!! Oh, here I go with the aging thing again. It's really on the top of my fears list. I have deep set wrinkles between my eyebrows for years and years of scowling. I have wrinkles all around my eyes from squinting. Next thing you know I'll have wrinkles around my lips! Well, I've just gone off on a tangent. I think I'll just go listen to Hey Jude and pretend I was born at a more convienient time for my personality. Then I will google botox and find out about fixing those wrinkles. LOL.

Short note: Caden had his first tball practice today. It was the most adorable thing I've ever seen. A bunch of 4 year olds running the bases the wrong direction and tackling each other for the ball. Hilarious! When I get his game schedule I will post it so that anyone who wishes to come to a game can attend. It will be worth 2 hours of your time. No way you could go and not smile the whole time. It was priceless. He had his new cleets and his little batting gloves and his Demarini bat. He even told his coach he didn't want to get his new shoes dirty. LOL. I love Caden. He makes me smile.