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I will sum up the whole gist of this post with a big WTF?!!! That is my current dominant thought. WTF! So today my boss (very sweet lady. reminds me of my mom) says that she and I need to have a "meeting". Great! A meeting. I missed work all last week because I had food poisoning so at this point I'm sure that I'm getting in trouble. In fact, I was sure I was getting fired. A whole bunch of stuff went on last week in my office and I feared that I was going to be the fall guy. In fact it would not have surprised me for one moment if I had been fired. But that was not the case. This meeting was supposed to be at 2pm. So all day I got to sit at my desk and do my work just knowing that my pink slip was prepared and just waiting to be handed to me. It did not make for a good morning. So eventually this meeting time rolls around. It appears serious as someone actually comes up to cover my desk and my boss closes the door with us in her office. That door never ever closes. Great. She seemed a little nervous to talk to me. She is one of those really nice ladies that never wants to discuss something negative. Ok...pause...this is where you need background info. For the last 6 weeks or so I have felt very uncomfortable at work. I work in a small office and their are cliques and such. Everyone has been there a long time and I'm walking into a tightly knit office. I have always been very friendly to everyone as I am just generally a nice person. Can anyone think of someone that I have been mean to? No. Why? Because I am NOT mean. I'm a kind person who wears her heart on her sleeve and is always nice to everyone. I've been uncomfortable because in spite of my niceness the majority of my office has just put up a wall and shut me out. I will try to talk to people and have everyday conversation and they basically roll their eyes at me and walk away. Yet I continue to be nice and make an effort. So Unpause.....back to my boss's office. She says to me, "This is not a formal thing, it's not an evaluation or official anything. I just wanted to talk to you about some things." Then she goes on to tell me that 5 or 6 employees have said to her that I am not nice, very unfriendly and kind of rude. This is where the WTF part comes in. I am in utter shock!!! First I cried. Yeah, I know...so not grown up and very unprofessional, but she touched on a nerve as this issue has been bothering me. She said she was kind of confused because she hears me when people come into the office or call and I'm always very kind and joke with them and make conversation. She gives several examples of times she has seen me make an effort with people etc. I looked at my kind boss and replied, "Excuse me but this is the biggest load of bs I've ever heard. I have been nothing but nice to everyone in this office. I have put out my best effort to make friends and talk with people but the majority of the people here want nothing to do with me." Then I gave several (maybe 10) examples of times that I tried to approach people and was completely shut down. The good news is that my boss was on my side and saw my point of view. She said that yes these people were not being nice and perhaps it was they that needed to make the effort. I told her it sounded like they hadn't actually lodged a complaint with her but just said an off the cuff office gossip type remark. Yeah, she agreed. Then I got really mad. I told her that the thing that irritated me the most about this entire conversation was that we are all adults and instead of these people saying something to me about it THEY WENT TO MY BOSS. They went to my boss over a petty caddy little personal issue. I told her that if any of these people (whom I still don't know who they are, but I have a good idea) had said anything at all to me that I had just seemed unfriendly to them to would have promptly apologized because I would never have done that on purpose. If I had purposely done something with malicious intent I can understand why it would be neccessary to go to my boss, but over something so petty and ridiculous? Give me a break. You think that when you graduate high school that you can finally leave all the jr high/high school drama type stuff behind, but then you become and adult and realize that a vast majority of "grown-ups" still act like that. It just makes me want to give out spankings. I am so completely floored over this situation. I mean, are you kidding me? No really, seriously, you have to be joking. What a waste of my afternoon. I even told my boss that I would bet anything that these people that said these things are probably women in their 30's and 40's. I don't want to stereotype here, but I guess I am anyway. For some reason women in that age range just don't like me. I don't know if it's because I'm younger or what, but they aren't my biggest fans. She said I was right, that they are. Yep. (Here's the part where my boss story ends and I just vent everything I have to say into my blog.) I'm sorry if I'm in my 20s and you are not. I'm sorry if I take pride in my appearance and wear nice clothes and spend money to have my hair done. I'm sorry if I carry myself with confidence (not arrogance, just being sure of myself). I'm sorry if I have had 2 children and do not weigh 300 lbs like you think I should. I'm sorry if I'm married, have children and DO NOT SUCK. I'm sorry if I'm super fun and you are not. I'm sorry if you have nothing better to do than be intimidated by me or jealous of me because I have nice clothes and a nice family and a nice outlook. I'm sorry if you have a problem with me because I have been nice to you when you don't deserve. Well, actually I'm not sorry at all. I'm am just a nice lady, who makes an effort to be kind to everyone, and has been fortunate and blessed enough to have a family that loves me and a few nice belongings. If you are so miserable that you can't accept someone that is genuinely kind to you and happens to be in a nice place in life then you can just go suck it! I will not be miserable because you gossip. I will not be intimidated because you say unkind things to my boss. You will not make me uncomfortable in my own office anymore. It's not up to you where I work, how I work or whether I stay at my job. I work there, so do you, if you can't deal with me then stay the hell out of my way. Otherwise you might have the unfortunate experience of me asking you how your day was or if you had a nice holiday. Love me or leave me alone. I run this ship, don't make me throw you overboard.

So there you have it. That was my wonderful day at work today. With that being said...good riddance to the poo poo year I've had in 2007. May 2008 be a better year!