Trip to Gma's

Today Mom, Caden, Macy and I went to visit Grandma Irene. I don't get to see my grandma near enough. She just celebrated her 91st birthday last week. I'm very sad that I don't get to visit her more often. It's hard on me when we do visit her. She is really slowing down and seems very tired. Sometimes she says she is "ready to go home." Those are the hardest words to hear from someone. I know that she is scared that she is not long for this world because when we leave she always makes it a point to say good-bye like it is the last time we see each other. The kids spent some time in her lap and gave her hugs and kisses. On the way there I explained to them how important grandma is and what a special lady she is. They really seemed to understand how much I love her. It's always surprising how intuitive children are to those kinds of things. Grandma and I have always been close. She never likes my hair, but other than that she has been a huge supporter in my life. It's nice to have that relationship with her.

I wish that I had a closer relationship with my other grandma. Grandma Sanders and I have never been close. At least she is nice to me now. I have definately struggled over my relationship with her. There are lots of things from my childhood and even some things that happened when I was in college that I have been trying to let go of. I don't know if she ever meant to hurt my feelings (except a few specific times I remember) or even knew she was hurting my feelings. We really don't have a grandma/grandaughter relationship at all. I'm probably much closer to some of my aunts and uncles. I've put in the effort to reach out to her several times but she never seemed very receptive. I guess we are just all different in how we approach our family relationships. Oh well, maybe one day it will get better and I will be able to have some great memories with BOTH of my grandmas.

Anyhow, I'm still enjoying my time with the kids. The past 2 days have been great. Caden is in school the rest of the week and Macy and I will have some one on one time. I am looking forward to some girl time with her but I will really miss having Caden in on it. The upside is that I will finally get to take him to school and pick him up and get some face time with his teachers.

WoooHooo!

So today was my first official day among the ranks of the unemployed. For those of you who don't know I decided to finish up some of my classes. I've been trying to do so while working full time and raising 2 toddlers and taking care of a house and husband. I'm sure you can guess...I didn't get much done with school. Anyway, my class starts next week so this week I am enjoying some quality time with my children. Today we went to McDonalds and then spent a few very enjoyable hours at the park. There is a really great park not to far from where we live. It's out away from town and it's only a year or two old. All the equipment is brand new and it's a very well kept secret. I'm happy to report that both of the kids, even Macy, played well with the other kids and had a great time. It has been a wonderful and perfect day with my babies. I wouldn't trade this day for anything. I'm looking forward to spending as much time as I can with them this week doing Mommy and Caden and Macy time. I hope this week lasts forever. It's MUCH better than it used to be when they were really little and I would struggle all day to get things done and welcome Chris home with peanut butter in my hair and formula all over my clothes! LOL. So, here's hoping for a never ending week!